Re: Sam A/Neil D
No, baby. I mean it. I'm the problem. If I could just move the fuck on, then we'd all be ok, yeah? Cris wouldn't yell at you, and I wouldn't be propositioning you in motels, and I wouldn't be hurting him all the time. I am, yeah? Lou's right, Cris wants me to change, but the shit he wants isn't like some massive thing. He just wants me to be ready to commit, and I have all this crap I'm not sure how to deal with. You. Ian, Micah, Joey. Being sick. He needs someone who can help with his shit, with Meredith and and with whatever else, and I suck at it. I'm really fucking terrible at it.
[...] I never expected you to walk out of that motel room and leave Meredith for me or anything. I'm not that naive anymore. I just wanted, IDK, to understand how I felt [...] about you.