Re: Call: Sam/Lou
[The quiet after that is very, very long. Her voice, once she speaks, is hella fucking quiet.] Neil self-flagellates with a bottle and getting lost in doors for months. He doesn't come back, and I did this. It's my responsibility. Cris is a good guy. He's good to me. He's good. I care about him a lot. I know he has a temper, and I know he says shit he shouldn't say, but don't hold this against him, yeah? He's had to deal with me not being over Neil for like eight fucking months. That shit would make anyone angry and insecure. [A long pause again.] And I know he wants to change shit about me. I tried. I know. I tried. I tried with Neil too. It never fucking works, yeah? I make them worse. [Quiet shake of her head.] I need to just stop, yeah? I know that. Leave Neil alone to move on. Leave Cris alone to find someone who's what he needs. [A wet little laugh.] I'm selfish, yeah? That's all. That's what it is. [Inhale.] I'm sorry, Lou.