Re: Sam A/Cris M I DON'T WANT TO NOT BE ABLE TO OK. Don't want to leave you like that, and you have to deal with all my fucked up damaged bullshit. I tried so fucking hard yesterday. I tried to fix shit for so many ppl, and none of it fucking worked. None of it worked. And IDK you say shit but I can't tell if it's true. I didn't realize Neil was never fucking interested I didn't. I knew he didn't love me, but I didn't know I was forcing him all the time, and Lou won't stop talking about rape. He says it over and over RAPE RAPE RAPE like he knows what it fucking is he doesn't know what it fucking is.