Re: steph/destiny.
You don't know that. You want to hope that it's not true, but that hope hurts and so you bury it along with the thought that you might ever deserve anything better. And then you tell yourself that you deserve this so many times that it it's a question anymore, but something you believe to be true.
You have hurt people, including someone I'm very close to. This isn't about her, or them, this is about the perpetualization of a cycle of self-hatred in lieu of making amends and growing from what's happened.