Re: neil d/sam a
Don't withdraw. Just pick less problematic ppl. Or have less problematic ppl pick you. That's why you like Meredith, yeah? She doesn't push you. She's companionship, but easy?
You're not a coward, Neil. Vegas was hard for us, and shit was really fucking bad, yeah? That shit's going to leave scars behind. It was a lot of pressure.
[Pen.] Doesn't change the fact that I'm sick and can't handle anything that he associates with me. I know you don't like him, and he can be a pushy little shit to you, but he takes care of me. I need that. I'm all fucked up, yeah? I'm not strong or whatever. It's all fake bullshit on my part. You left, and I fell the fuck apart, and that's on me, baby, not on you. And you think you're responsible for everything, so I call bullshit on your thing about only blaming yourself if you're responsible.