Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: Wren H/Evie S
I thought that you did know, at least parts of it. I don't know why - I just assumed we must have talked about it at some point. I don't mind talking about it. It's not a good story, but it isn't something that I try to hide either. I think it's important, there are bad things in the world, and if people don't talk about them no one is ever going to do anything to stop them.
No, I'm not like her - but I'm afraid that some parts of her are in me somewhere. I've always been afraid of that, it's why I wasn't ever going to have babies, and why I was so scared when I found out I was going to have a baby.
I did go, and yes it helped. It took all those bad things and like I said, helped me find that person you met. And that's why I'm so worried right now, because I don't want to lose her. That person who loved herself. And taught Will how to love himself. And found the best friend ever. And loved ugliness as much as anything else. But it feels like all these layers have just been cut away and it hurts and is raw.
I know I could go and get help again, to try and make sense of everything. I'm not hesitant because it doesn't work, I mean of course I'm afraid it will be pointless and I'll just be stuck like this. But mostly I'm just afraid because it's going to be hard. It's so hard.