Evangeline Sablier is not broken, but please (handlewithcare) wrote in rooms,
Re: Wren H/Evie S
No one is bad.
I just know Jack. And trust him a lot. I think he knows better than to just tell me yes because he feels sorry for me. And if he told me no, I'd know it's because that's the right answer.
The last time I stayed with them it just didn't go very well. I tried to be helpful when I was there, everything I said or did was always irritating Shane. Which was totally unfair of me. He didn't have to come get me in Gotham City, he was just dog sitting, which was also a huge ask for someone I barely know.
But, I didn't know anyone else to call when I was lost.
And when Clementine tried to help, obviously there was no one else, so it's good he was around but that's no reason for me to be a pain. I was injured and sick and confused and stuck on a train somewhere. So I called him back. I didn't have anywhere else to go and even though I am so grateful that he saved my life, it was just...Not a very good fit I don't think.
I tried to clean up and sent Clementine shampoo and kept the house clean and always folded up my stuff in the living room and all that. But everything I said or asked was just...Always wrong. And then it was just super embarrassing having to be told it was time to go. I get why, I definitely understand, no one should have to just let a stranger stick around forever, especially when they were all leaving. But I should have known better and left way sooner.
I don't want to do all that again. I don't want to make anyone grumpy. I don't have the energy to grump back, no bite left. What if I'm just tense all the time and Daisy feels it? Or what if we get asked to leave again? Then I've moved her for no reason. I'm not saying Jack won't get sick of us, he might. But I think he'd know today if that was going to be a problem. And he'd just say no. Which is fine. I think Graham's got good intentions, but I'm afraid. He doesn't even know what the rent is, or how long I'd be able to stay. He said we'd figure it out later, and that's not a good idea.
But no one is bad. I'm not like having a contest or something. I just want to be careful.