[04:21] minutemarch: " I told you and you were gonna slink off to Aiden." [04:22] lovedlea: "Because after asking for specifics, you just told me the same thing for the third time. If you're not going to open up, what else am I supposed to do?" [04:23] minutemarch: ""I was trying to spare you." [04:23] lovedlea: "And you think just leaving would have been the better choice there?" [04:24] minutemarch: "I don't know how else to do it." [04:24] lovedlea: "How else to do what?" [04:25] minutemarch: "Deal with this." [04:26] lovedlea: "By this you mean me." [04:26] minutemarch: "It's not just you." [04:27] lovedlea: "Okay. So there are other things going on that you won't talk to me about because you think I'm too fragile?" [04:30] minutemarch: "No. I just don't know how to say it." [04:31] lovedlea: "So start explaining things and eventually we'll figure it out." [04:31] minutemarch: "I was simple. I used to understand it. Now I don't.": [04:32] lovedlea: "Don't understand what?" [04:33] minutemarch: "How to be in the middle of this." [04:34] lovedlea: "You realize you're not actually answering the question, right?" [04:35] lovedlea: "Besides me, what are you trying to run away from?" [04:36] minutemarch: "It's exhausting." [04:37] lovedlea: "Everything? Maybe we should try to narrow it down by what you don't hate right now." [04:37] minutemarch: "Aiden. The quiet stuff. The house stuff. The sex." [04:39] lovedlea: "It's been mostly quiet stuff and house stuff since my meds started kicking in." [04:39] minutemarch: "For how long?" [04:41] lovedlea: "Cas, if you're not happy with me, just say that. Don't try and blame it on everything else because you think I can't handle it. Every single specific thing you've said so far has been my fault. So just say it." [04:41] minutemarch: "I... think I could be happy with you. If things were different." He said softly. [04:42] lovedlea: "Different how, Cas? What do you want me to change?" [04:44] minutemarch: "Maybe you should ask Dean and Jo." [04:45] lovedlea: "What does that mean?" [04:45] minutemarch: "It means I don't know how to give myself peace but they do." [04:46] lovedlea: "So you want me to ask them how I can be different to keep you from leaving?" [04:47] minutemarch: "I'm saying maybe they'll know what to do because I don;t." [04:48] lovedlea: "Okay." [04:49] minutemarch: "You guys... should all talk." [04:50] lovedlea: "Maybe you should talk to them too. Or, you know, all of us together." [04:54] minutemarch: "After you do, I will." [04:55] lovedlea: "How does that help? What if they don't understand it either? Relationships are supposed to be about communication." [04:56] minutemarch: "If they don't then they can come to me." [04:56] lovedlea: "Why don't you want the four of us to talk?" [05:00] minutemarch: "It'll change the dymanic if I'm there." [05:01] lovedlea: "I don't see how that's a bad thing." [05:03] minutemarch: "You asked me what you could do to help. I told you." [05:04] lovedlea: Anna sighed, shoulders sinking. "Sometimes you drive me crazy." [05:07] minutemarch: "I asked you to talk to our lovers, not peel your skin off. It its' too much I doubt it's gonna make much difference." [05:08] lovedlea: "And I said I would talk to them." [05:09] minutemarch: "And I said yeah. After you." [05:09] lovedlea: "Fine." [05:10] minutemarch: "You know what? Don't bother. If you can't even do this one thing for me without arguing what the hell have I got to hold on to?"