Who: Sam Winchester & Lyz When: Early Wednesday Where: Random hotel restaurant Rating: A for Angst. Status: Log; Complete
Black PaIadin 9:20 pm Sam wished he knew what she liked to eat, and he wished he wasn't so nervous about whether or not his daughter showed up. He sat at a table near a window, absently tapping a fork on the table while he waited, trying to decide whether or not he really wanted to see her. A part of him did, but a part of him was afraid she'd find him lacking, and hate him.
lovedlea 9:29 pm Lyz was really not in the mood to deal with this. She'd faced enough rejection in the past few days, she didn't need to see how disappointed Sam was going to be. And she knew he would be. Oh, he'd pretend it was okay and that nothing she did could ever be wrong, because that's what her dad did. Mom said it was something to do with his starring role in the apocalypse or the fact that grandpa was a drill sergeant douche bag, but it didn't matter. Lyz could always see when Sam was disappointed in her. So she was literally dragging her feet as she made her way across the restaurant toward him, looking every bit like a child of him and Ruby would, the perfect mixture of them, in appearance and attitude. She didn't know what to say, so she just stood there, looking as nonchalant as she could, trying not to feel feelings because she refused to cry in front of him.
Black PaIadin 9:36 pm He looked over and when he saw her, he smiled. She looked so much like Ruby, it was a little odd, but he could see parts of his mom in her, too. Sam stood as she approached and dropped the fork onto the table nervously. "Hey. Hi. You're gorgeous." He hadn't meant to say that out loud, and blushed a little. "Hi."
lovedlea 9:38 pm Lyz rolled her eyes, but she didn't recover quick enough to keep the flush off her cheeks. "Yeah, that's a weird thing to say." It wasn't, but she was trying really hard to be completely disconnected from all this. It was easier. It felt less like rejection if she pretended not to care. "Hi."
Black PaIadin 9:39 pm Still smiling, he moved around the table and pulled the chair out for her. "How're you doing?" He knew there was something going on with her and Luke, but he still wanted to know in general. He especially wanted to know if she was happy.
lovedlea 9:42 pm Lyz rolled her eyes. If her dad had been this much of a sap before she was born, she didn't know if that made it good or bad that she was born. He seemed to need to stop being a sappy wimp... or maybe he was better this way. He seemed happier. Lyz rolled her eyes. "I'm fine. I'm just peachy."
Black PaIadin 9:45 pm "Good." He sat down again, glancing at the table, then back up to her. "Are you hungry? What do you like to eat?" He really wasn't that great at small talk, and if he had to keep this up, it wasn't going to go well.
lovedlea 9:47 pm "I'm not hungry." Lyz couldn't remember the last time she ate. Before the Luke thing. She didn't eat much anyway, but she hadn't had an appetite since everything exploded.
Black PaIadin 9:47 pm "Alright. Do you want to go somewhere else? Or stay here?" Either was fine with him, but he had no idea what she liked or wanted to do.
lovedlea 9:50 pm "Here's fine." She had no idea what he wanted. Honestly, all she could think was that Uncle Cas had stuck his nose where it didn't belong again and guilted Sam into taking an interest in his daughter's life.
Black PaIadin 9:52 pm "Okay. Great." He nodded a bit, then continued. "So tell me about yourself. What do you like to do? ...Are you happy?"
lovedlea 9:57 pm Lyz rolled her eyes. Of course he was going to go there. "I'm a sixteen year old delinquent, what do you think?"
Black PaIadin 9:58 pm "Considering I don't know any, that's why I'm asking."
lovedlea 9:58 pm "You going to change you whole future if I say yes? There's no point to this line of questioning."
Black PaIadin 9:59 pm "Okay...what do you want to talk about, then?"
lovedlea 10:00 pm Nothing was probably the wrong answer. But it was the truth. She'd only come down here because he'd practically begged her to. "Why don't you just tell me that Uncle Cas wants me to stay away from Luke and we can be done with all this awkward."
Black PaIadin 10:01 pm "Is that what you want to hear?" He sighed and glanced away to look out the window. "I'm sorry I haven't been a good father."
lovedlea 10:04 pm "It's what I'm going to hear anyway." Lyz rolled her eyes. He was going to get into one of his stupid sulky things again. Awesome. He wasn't drunk enough for her to placate him right now. "You haven't been anything, you're still a few years from being anything. You don't have anything to do with my past yet."
Black PaIadin 10:05 pm "It's not what I'm going to say." He looked back over to her, a little sad. It wasn't her he was disappointed in, but himself, for letting her down. "I'm sorry about your past, Lyz."
lovedlea 10:07 pm "You don't have anything to be sorry about. You didn't do it." Lyz huffed a little. She did not want to be having this conversation.
Black PaIadin 10:08 pm "Hopefully I can keep from making the same mistakes that have led you to...not even want to see me." If they did have a daughter, he'd try and do better.
lovedlea 10:09 pm "When has anyone ever been able to change the past? Don't worry about it. I'm fine."
Black PaIadin 10:10 pm "You don't want to be here, do you?"
lovedlea 10:15 pm "Is it that obvious?" Lyz sighed, crossing her arms over her chest and gazing off into the distance away from him. "Look, it's not you. You're not the worst dad ever. I don't hate you. I don't hate mom. I'm just really not in the mood to play happy family right now. I want to go home." Home where their parents didn't know that she and Luke had tried to fuck so they couldn't keep her away from him.
Black PaIadin 10:16 pm "I just wanted to have the chance to get to know you. That's all."
lovedlea 10:20 pm "You will. That's what the future's for." Lyz shrugged. "Besides, I don't hide shit. What you saw on the network is me. That's what I'm like. Not hard to get to know me."
Black PaIadin 10:21 pm "Alright." He sighed a little and nodded. "Fair enough. I'm guessing you've got better things to do than hang out with me, anyway."
lovedlea 10:25 pm "Oh yeah. There's a whole TV full of retro shows begging me to throw shit at them." Better things to do right now consisted of anything that could distract her from the situation with Luke. And right now, it didn't seem like anything fit that description.
Black PaIadin 11:10 pm Sam nodded again. "Okay. But, listen. If you need anything, just to talk or anything at all, I'm here. Remember that, okay?"
lovedlea 11:11 pm "I don't talk."
Black PaIadin 11:18 pm "Alright. I guess I'll see you around? If you want, I mean."
lovedlea 11:19 pm "I'm sure we won't be here much longer."
Black PaIadin 11:19 pm "You might be right about that."
lovedlea 11:25 pm "Yeah. So just... whatever." Lyz pushed back from the table and turned to head out of the restaurant. She stopped about three tables away, but didn't look back. "You know, if mom's gonna give up her power for you, the least you could do is marry her. Maybe you'd fight less if you treated her like a person."
Black PaIadin 11:26 pm He blinked. Ruby would give that up for him? After a moment, he stood, then walked up behind her and hugged her from behind. "I'll remember that. I promise. And you know what? No matter what happens, we do both love you in the future. I'm sure of that."
lovedlea 11:30 pm Lyz went tense in Sam's arms. Not because she didn't want to hug her dad, or be hugged by her dad. But because she'd been on the verge of crying since Uncle Cas had demanded she stay away from Luke and if she let herself relax in Sam's hug, she was going to cry. For all their dysfunction, she knew her dad loved her. She wasn't so sure about her mom, but that was a typical teenage girl thing. She and Ruby were so much alike that they tended to bash horns often.
Black PaIadin 11:33 pm He was silent, feeling her tense, and closed his eyes for a moment. She didn't smell like Ruby, but she did have a unique scent that stirred some protective instinct in him. Whenever it happened, she was a part of him, him and Ruby. "I'm proud of you, too." Kissing the top of her head lightly, his arms loosened, giving her the chance to step away if she wanted to.
lovedlea 11:36 pm Lyz shook her head. "No you're not. No one is. Luke and I are different and everyone thinks it's wrong. You'll see, you won't like it either."
Black PaIadin 11:37 pm "You're my daughter." He said it simply, squeezing her shoulders lightly. "I'll try to make things easier on you, if I can."
lovedlea 11:39 pm "You don't make things hard. Except when you and mom fight. It's not your fault I'm different."
Black PaIadin 11:39 pm "I'll try to keep from fighting with her so much."
lovedlea 11:41 pm "Yeah. Okay." She didn't believe it, but it didn't matter. She doubted anything would change. You couldn't change the past. A lot of her family had time traveled and not a single one of them had changed anything.
Black PaIadin 11:42 pm He gave her one last quick hug, then stepped back, his arms dropping down. "Take care of yourself, okay?"
lovedlea 11:45 pm "Yeah. Sure." Lyz shrugged again and then moved swiftly toward the exit to try and stop herself from saying something stupid again.