WHO: Anna & Cas WHEN: Thurs early morning WHERE: Harvelle-Winchester house WHAT: early morning snugglies RATING: pg13
[01:47] lovedlea: Anna was up before the sun rose. Aiden got hungry and then after she'd fed him, she couldn't get back to sleep. She settled Aiden in his swing and settled down on the couch with a book.
[01:49] minutemarch: Cas had already greeted his spouses for the day and had his shower. He had some time before work and came down to find food but found Anna instead. He smiled at her. "Hey. Sleep well last night? Nice you could join us."
[01:51] lovedlea: Anna lifted her eyes at the sound of Cas' voice. She actually turned a bit pink. "Sorry about that, we just... you know, fell asleep. I thought you two would wake us up when you were ready for bed."
[01:53] minutemarch: "Sorry? Man, that was the cutest thing I've seen all week."
[01:55] lovedlea: Anna face went pink again and she tucked her legs up under her. "Oh... well, I didn't mean to squish you out of your own bed anyway."
[01:57] minutemarch: "You didn't. There's plenty of room and... we like having you there." He moved to sit beside her. "Really."
[02:01] lovedlea: "Okay. As long as you're sure. Don't want to make it crowded." Anna shifted on the couch a bit, closing her book over the bookmark and setting it on the arm of the couch.
[02:05] minutemarch: "Maybe we like crowded," he said, draping an arm around her and letting her rest on him "It's OK to relax. "
[02:07] lovedlea: Anna hesitated and then she leaned toward him, snuggling into his arms. "I'm relaxing... a little bit... slowly... I'm getting there."
[02:09] minutemarch: "Yeah, I know, and it's amazing to see. I... really like that we can do that for you."
[02:13] minutemarch: "This place is special and I'm glad you'll get to feel that too." He leaned in to kiss her lightly.
[02:15] lovedlea: Anna closed her eyes, letting her lips linger against his for a moment, feeling her heart pounding in her chest again. "It's special. You three are special."
[02:16] minutemarch: "Yeah, it's special. What we have is special. What it does for us is special. I guess it wanted you too." Another lazy kiss, a little longer.
[02:17] lovedlea: Anna rested her hand on the crook of his neck, eyes still pressed closed, trying to ignore the nervous feeling as she kissed him. "It did?"
[02:19] minutemarch: "Seems so, yeah." He smiled. "I'm glad... I'm glad Dean asked for this. Really glad but... I know there's something that I'll struggle with."
[02:20] lovedlea: "What?" Anna tensed a bit leaning back and looking up at him with a little worry on her face.
[02:21] minutemarch: "I don't know... how I'll go seeing you with Dean." He bit his lip.
[02:22] lovedlea: "Oh... would you... would it be worse or better if you didn't?"
[02:23] minutemarch: "I need to see it. Need to face it but I'll need his help. I know that."
[02:25] lovedlea: "Oh..." Anna nodded a little, dropping her gaze again. "It's okay if it doesn't work."
[02:25] minutemarch: "Anna, stop that. We will work. It's just... a hiccup."
[02:28] lovedlea: Anna lifted her gaze, still a bit nervous. But Cas relaxed her, made her feel safe. So she just kind of nodded, nuzzling back into his arms and sighing.
[02:29] minutemarch: "I promise. Dean will understand and help me through it. It'll be OK. I... as for you... I really have no problem there." He kissed her cheek. "Really."
[02:31] lovedlea: "What about... me and Jo?" Anna tipped her face into his kiss again. "Is that... does that bother you?"
[02:32] minutemarch: "Not as much... I think because you're girls and that's... I think it's because Dean fell first. I know he's more enthusiastic than Jo and that scares me a little." He tone was open and honest. She was now included in his honesty pact.
[02:35] lovedlea: "It's okay because we're girls...?" Anna raised an eyebrow at him, smirking just the tiniest little bit. "Typical male answer."
[03:25] minutemarch: "That only a tiny part of it," he said. "If Jo had brought you in I'd have felt the same about her."
[03:27] lovedlea: "Oh. Well... just... whatever you're comfortable with." Anna nodded a little closing her eyes and trying to relax against him again.
[03:32] minutemarch: "I need him to take this slow with you but I don't need him to stop. OK?"
[03:34] lovedlea: "There's nothing to stop. There hasn't been anything. Especially lately." Anna sighed, trying not to sound disappointed, or relieved, or anything. She wasn't really sure what she felt.
[03:35] minutemarch: "I know. He's being careful of us. I... I mean you can kiss him. Hold him. But please... wait for sex till Jo and I are ready?"
[03:38] lovedlea: "I can wait. I didn't... expect any of this anyway." Anna had expected to go back and being alone, fighting off her feeling, trying to shut down entirely for her own good. She could wait. She was still a bit worried that it might not work out at all.
[03:43] minutemarch: "I know you can. It probably won't be long. Just a little time. It's... important to us to do this right and Dean wants us OK with everything. I promise when it's all over you won't mind the wait." He nuzzled Anna's hair.
[03:45] lovedlea: Anna closed her eyes and nodded. "It's okay. I don't mind. Whatever you're comfortable with, whenever. I'll be patient."
[03:47] minutemarch: "Thanks, Anna. I really appreciate this." He kissed the top of her head. "Did you have a nice time with Jo?"
[03:49] lovedlea: "It was good. She seems okay with it too."
[03:51] minutemarch: "I know. I talked to her. I told her about what happened last night. She told me about the hot tub. I was really glad to see her feeling safe."
[03:53] lovedlea: "She made me feel safe too." Anna closed her eyes, leaning closer to him. "I missed her."
[03:54] minutemarch: "I missed you having that. She has a good heart. Just... be good to her and she'll make you feel amazing. She's amazing."
[03:55] lovedlea: "She's worried about me pushing everyone away again."
[03:55] minutemarch: "But you won't, right?"
[03:57] lovedlea: "No. I can't. Not now." Anna sighed. "But I might get... I have bad days. It's hard sometimes."
[03:58] minutemarch: "We all have those but, here, when you have a bad day? You do up to Dean or Jo and put your arms around 'em and they rock you back and forth till you feel better."
[03:59] lovedlea: "I don't know if I'm ready for that..."
[04:02] minutemarch: "It's OK. I didn't used to be either. You can always come to me."
[04:03] lovedlea: "It's hard for me, Cas. It'll just... take time. Sometimes I need... to be pushed."
[04:03] minutemarch: "Push? Not to leave?"
[04:05] lovedlea: "Maybe pushed is the wrong word. Maybe forced snuggling."
[04:06] minutemarch: "We're not gonna leave you miserable. You need to rely on us too. It's OK. It'll come to you... and I'd like to kiss you again."
[04:08] lovedlea: "It's hard for me to rely on anyone else but... I'll try. It'll take time." Anna lifted her eyes toward him, a bit of a pink coloring her cheeks. "I'd like that, too."
[04:08] minutemarch: "It's OK. You get to ask for more time." He smiled at her. "OK. Off you go then."
[04:10] lovedlea: Anna was pretty sure her heart thudded up into her throat. She nodded, pressing her hand against his chest and closing her eyes, leaning up toward him.
[04:14] minutemarch: Cas smiled, his own heart thudding. He was really starting to fall for her. He pressed his lips to hers and moved them softly, starting slow."
[04:17] lovedlea: Anna leaned closer, lips pressed to his. She sighed against his kiss and parted her lips. She wiggled closer.
[04:17] minutemarch: Cas took her hand and opened his mouth a little, letting Anna choose the pace this time.
[04:20] lovedlea: Anna was nervous, but she couldn't stop the way her heart thudded in her chest. She murmured softly, running her tongue tentatively along his lower lip.
[04:21] minutemarch: Cas groaned softly at that and shifted a little on the couch, moving a little closer.
[04:23] lovedlea: She felt the warmth of his body press against hers and moaned in response, closing her fingers around his shirt. Anna pressed into the kiss a bit deeper.
[04:24] minutemarch: Cas opened his mouth wider to allow he access, his heart lurching in his chest as he groaned deep in his throat. He rested a hand on her thigh.
[04:26] lovedlea: Anna opened her eyes, looking up at him a bit. She wiggled closer and pulled herself nearly into his lap. He groaned and she couldn't help but moan in response.
[04:28] minutemarch: Cas wrapped his arms around her and pulled her to him, holding her close and he pulled her fully into his lap.
[04:31] lovedlea: He was warm, solid, safe. She nuzzled into his arms, pausing and pressing her forehead against his only because they needed to breathe. She pressed her hands to his chest and panted softly, eyes fluttering shut for a moment.
[04:32] minutemarch: Cas breathed just as hard as he looked up at her. "You're... good at that."
[04:35] lovedlea: Anna chuckled softly. "I actually haven't had much practice."
[04:39] minutemarch: "Seriously? I wouldn't have guessed. That's... wow. I can see you're gonna be popular... Have you... kissed Dean yet?"
[04:41] lovedlea: "A while ago. Before... you know, all this." Anna closed her eyes again and tried to ignore the nerves. "In the dreams, but other than that it was a while ago. Before you guys were together." And it was a lot more than kissing, but Anna wasn't sure if Cas knew that.
[04:43] minutemarch: "Not since then?" Cas knew. Dean had told him after they got together but he had thought it was all over. He was a little glad to be wrong. "He's good, isn't he," Cas grinned.
[04:44] lovedlea: "Only in the dreams. I wouldn't do that to you. Or Jo. I only ever wanted you guys to be happy, so I stayed out of it."
[04:48] minutemarch: "Hey, I mean before. And the dreams. It's OK. Dean told be about them. It's OK if you liked it."
[04:53] lovedlea: "It was safe. The dreams made me feel safe." Anna dropped her head against his shoulder. "You make me feel safe too. I didn't expect that."
[04:55] minutemarch: "I... didn't expect to want this... I didn't expect this would make me feel safe. The dreams... they scared me a lot."
[04:57] lovedlea: "They scared me too. I don't want to hurt you guys."
[05:00] minutemarch: "I... was scared he wanted something I couldn't give him." Then he smiled. "I didn't know I had room for something too."
[05:01] lovedlea: "I'm surprised you did."
[05:02] minutemarch: "Me too. Very much so. But... I love to see you relax here and so does Jo."
[05:03] lovedlea: Anna nodded, closing her eyes and clinging closer to him. "Cas... could I... do you think we could move me and Aiden upstairs? If Sam doesn't mind?"
[05:04] minutemarch: Cas blinked, then smiled. "What a good idea."
[05:06] lovedlea: "I just... I can't sleep down here lately. He makes me nervous."
[05:08] minutemarch: "I know Anna. I know. We want you upstairs with us. So long as you can cope with the noise."
[05:09] lovedlea: "I can hear the noise from down here." Anna glanced back at her room for a second and then dropped her gaze. "My room is right below yours."
[05:11] minutemarch: "Ohhh, man. Anna... I'm sorry." And he looked it.
[05:13] lovedlea: "Don't be sorry. I'm glad they make you happy." Anna kept her head against his shoulder, keeping her expression neutral anyway.
[05:15] minutemarch: "I want you happy too. As happy as I am. Jo told me today she's as happy with us as she was in Heaven. She doesn't know I cried after I felt her."
[05:16] lovedlea: "Even now? Even with me here she's that happy?"
[05:17] minutemarch: "Yeah. She knows how loved she is."
[05:18] lovedlea: "Oh. That's good."
[05:29] minutemarch: "It's... more than that. It's our glue." He nuzzled her again.
[05:31] lovedlea: Anna smiled, nuzzling back against him. She stroked her fingers along his collar bone. "It's nice. You're lucky."
[05:32] minutemarch: "Yeah. I really, really am. And so are you. It means we can make this work."
[05:34] lovedlea: "I am, if you guys want me here." Anna nodded, nuzzling her face against his throat. "If you guys really want this to work, then I'm lucky too."
[05:35] minutemarch: "I... really want to try my best. Yeah... yeah want this to work. I do. I want you as happy as I am." He growled as his head tipped back.
[05:37] minutemarch: "I know. Nother reason I want you here." He pressed his throat into her kisses.
[05:41] lovedlea: Anna stroked her fingers along his collar bone. She leaned up, a little nervous, but trying to push past it. Pressing her lips to his, Anna rubbed her fingers along his cheek gently.
[05:41] minutemarch: Cas responded with the same gentleness, his hands gently kneaded the flesh of her thighs.
[05:44] lovedlea: Anna deepened the kiss a bit, little by little, trying to stop herself from being afraid of feeling what she wanted to feel.
[05:45] minutemarch: Cas opened his mouth to her again, making it clear that her pace was OK for him.
[05:47] lovedlea: Anna shifted on his lap, scooting a bit closer, leaning the other way. She nuzzled her nose against his, pausing a moment in the kiss just to breath. And then pressing her lips to his again.
[05:49] minutemarch: Cas liked the little pauses. He needed them as it turned out. The newness of it left him a little breathless. He kissed her slowly, exploring the feel of it. He hummed softly, his hands rising to her hips.
[05:52] lovedlea: Anna was probably too into it. More than she'd expected to be. She wrapped her arms around his shoulders, moaning softly as she leaned into his kiss.
[05:54] minutemarch: Cas pressed back, eager and very much enjoying himself. He sent his tongue into her mouth in gentle exploration
[05:57] lovedlea: Stroking his jaw gently, Anna took another breath. She pressed her forehead against his for a second, face slightly flushed. "Is this okay, Cas?"
[05:58] minutemarch: "I am allowed to kiss you," he breathed. "So, yes. This is ok."
[05:59] lovedlea: "I know, you said that Jo's okay with it. That's not what I meant. Do you... like it? This, with me?"
[06:00] minutemarch: "Oh..." he smiled up at her. "Yeah. I like this. Very much."
[06:02] lovedlea: "Yeah...?" Anna looked skeptical. Sort of nervous. But she smiled a bit, fingers still rubbing against his jaw.
[06:03] minutemarch: "Yeah," he said firmly. "I really like kissing you, with their permission."
[06:05] lovedlea: "Good." Anna pressed a soft kiss to his lips. "I'm glad. I like kissing you, too. I like... the way it makes me feel."
[06:06] minutemarch: "Yeah? How does it make you feel?"
[06:08] lovedlea: "Warm... happy..." Anna closed her eyes, cheeks going pink again. She pressed her lips to his again, tentatively, her voice soft against his mouth. "A little excited."
[06:08] minutemarch: "Excited huh? What are you excited about?" Of course, Cas felt the same.
[06:10] lovedlea: Anna's blush deepened a bit. "I don't know... this, us, uhm... just you and me, and everyone together. And, you know, kissing is exciting..."
[06:10] minutemarch: "Yeah... all of that is... hmmm... exciting," he said between kisses. "Plus it feels... nice."
[06:13] lovedlea: "It does feel nice." Anna wrapped one arm around his shoulders and then gripped the front of his shirt a bit tighter. She took a breath, not sure if they should stop or not. "Cas... what's the... the rules? Where's the stopping point?"
[06:16] minutemarch: "I... don't really know..." He shifted his kisses to her neck. "I was told kissing is OK. I think it's OK as long as no one has an orgasm."
[06:17] lovedlea: Anna groaned and then actually chuckled. She dropped her head back a little. "That's a pretty vague rule. A lot of stuff can happen without orgasms. I... had a conversation the other day, about how I haven't had enough, can't do it even touching myself." Okay, so she hadn't meant to say that, but his mouth on her throat was very distracting.
[06:20] minutemarch: "Ummm, you having trouble getting there?" He narrowed his eyes and tilted his head.
[06:21] lovedlea: "I don't... I've never really..." Anna's face went red all the way up to her ears. "I've only done it once or twice and it's never really... you know... I just can't..."
[06:22] minutemarch: "Oh man. OK. You mean with sex or anything?"
[06:24] lovedlea: "With sex, yeah. I mean, a couple times. With Dean every time, and with Jo a few times, and sometimes with Crowley. But just... not much."
[06:25] minutemarch: "With Dean every time? Yeah. I believe that." He looked just a little distracted. "Um... so you'll be with Dean and Jo so..."
[06:26] lovedlea: "Is it weird that I don't... you know... touch myself? Laura thought it was weird."
[06:28] minutemarch: "It's unusual. Not weird. Why don't you? If you don't mind saying." [06:29] lovedlea: "I just... never have? I was Catholic and then I, you know, never learned..."
[06:31] minutemarch: "You asking me to teach you?" he grinned.
[06:32] lovedlea: "Not that I have the experience to know but I'm guessing you don't have the right equipment for that."
[06:38] minutemarch: "No but Jo does."
[06:39] lovedlea: "Are you suggesting I ask Jo to teach me?"
[06:41] minutemarch: "That, or... keep in mind I get Jo there with my hand on a regular basis."
[06:43] lovedlea: "Oh. Yeah." Anna's face went pink again and she nuzzled her face into his throat. "I think that breaks the no orgasm rule."
[06:45] minutemarch: "Not if I don't touch you."
[06:46] lovedlea: "I don't know that... maybe we should talk to Jo and Dean first. Just to make sure. I don't want... I don't want anyone upset with me."
[06:49] minutemarch: "We'll put."
[06:50] lovedlea: Anna sighed a bit, pressing her face against the crook of his neck. "Maybe Jo wants to help."
[06:52] minutemarch: "I.... I could ask.' He actually blushed.
[06:53] lovedlea: "Yeah? Do you think she'd... want to teach me?" Anna was blushing too, but nuzzled up against him, she couldn't see it. "I feel stupid having to be taught something like that."
[06:56] minutemarch: "Yeah, yeah I think she might. I might like to hold you while she does."
[06:57] lovedlea: "Do you want... Dean to be there too? To watch too? Or is that too much already?"
[06:59] minutemarch: ""I... don't know... I don't think I'm ready for that. I don't."
[06:59] lovedlea: "Okay."
[07:01] minutemarch: "But I want to try something with you and Jo."
[07:02] lovedlea: "As long as Jo's okay with it."
[07:03] minutemarch: "Well, yeah. Can't do it without her." He smiled and kissed her cheek. "I'm looking forward to you learning this."
[07:04] lovedlea: "I'm... a little nervous, honestly. I might not be any good at it."
[07:05] minutemarch: "Hey, it's OK. If you take a while to learn you still haven't really lost anything. You just have to relax and feel what your hand is doing."
[07:07] lovedlea: "Yeah, I've tried and it just doesn't work. I mean, it feels good but I don't... you know..."
[07:08] minutemarch: "It's OK. We'll help you get there. I can make Jo come every time."
[07:09] lovedlea: "I don't doubt that."
[07:10] minutemarch: "Hmm, and I want to do the same for you. You know that right?"
[07:12] lovedlea: "Yeah? Really?" Anna smiled a bit, nuzzling against his throat. "I know it now."
[07:12] minutemarch: "Yeah. Really," he growled in his throat. "I want you to feel really, really. good."
[07:13] lovedlea: "It feels pretty good when you kiss me."
[07:15] minutemarch: "Yeah?" He kissed her again. "You like this, huh?"
[07:17] lovedlea: Anna chuckled, clinging to his chest a bit. That wasn't what she'd intended, but she wasn't going to argue. She let her eyes flutter shut as she relaxed into his kiss again. "Mmm mhmm."
[07:18] minutemarch: "You wanna know the best bit about this?"
[07:18] lovedlea: "What's that?"
[07:19] minutemarch: "Your smile."
[07:21] lovedlea: She couldn't even stop herself from grinning at that. She didn't even bother trying, just grinned into his kiss. "What is with everyone and my smile?"
[07:21] minutemarch: "We all missed it," he said as he kissed it thoroughly.
[07:24] lovedlea: Anna moaned softly into his kiss, gripping his shirt again. "You keep kissing me like this, you won't have to miss it... although you might not be able to actually see it."
[07:25] minutemarch: "I don't need to see it so long as you feel it," he said as he kept kissing her hungrily.
[07:27] lovedlea: "Mmm." Anna nodded a bit, giving over wholly into his kiss. "I feel it."
[07:28] minutemarch: "So can I, beautiful Anna." He smiled against her lips.
[07:32] lovedlea: Anna grinned more, feeling her heart thudding in her chest again. "You make me feel... so much..."
[07:32] minutemarch: "Hope it's something good."
[07:36] lovedlea: "It is." Anna wiggled a bit, leaning back against the arm of the couch, trying not to break the kiss. "Lots of good I didn't expect."
[07:36] minutemarch: "And you know... there are two more upstairs."
[07:38] lovedlea: "I know." Anna stroked her fingers along his jaw again, eyes closed as she breathed deeply. "It's scary but... I feel... safe."
[07:40] minutemarch: "You are safe, Anna. You're safe with us." He kissed her gently.
[07:41] lovedlea: "I trust you. I don't usually make good choices, but I trust you guys."
[07:44] minutemarch: "You've seen how we roll."
[07:45] lovedlea: Anna snorted, pressing her nose against his cheek for a minute. "That's a terrible thing to say. Some slang should never be repeated."
[07:48] minutemarch: "My point stands," he smiled. "But I have to go to work."
[07:49] lovedlea: "I should probably make breakfast."
[07:49] minutemarch: "I can do that. The others will be down in a minute."
[07:50] lovedlea: "It's okay. I don't mind cooking. I feel like I should since, you know, I'm the only one who doesn't work."
[07:52] minutemarch: "OK... if you like." He kissed he again. "I think they'd like that."
[07:53] lovedlea: "Omelets?"
[07:54] minutemarch: "Sounds good."
[07:55] lovedlea: "Do you have time to feed Aiden?"
[07:55] minutemarch: "I'll start breakfast. You feel the little guy."
[07:56] lovedlea: "You sure? I don't mind breakfast. And he likes your attention too."
[07:58] minutemarch: "Yeah... OK. I can do that." He kissed her one last time. "I'll get his milk."
[07:59] lovedlea: Anna smiled a tiny smile, sliding off his lap. She followed him into the kitchen, starting up the bottle warmer and then grabbing for the eggs, veggies, and some meat.