WHO: Anna & Cas WHEN: Tues Night WHERE: Anna's room WHAT: snuggling & kisses RATING: pg13
[05:55] lovedlea: Anna hadn't slept in what felt like weeks. She sat up most nights staring at the window. And she dozed off and on during the day when she knew someone else was around to keep an eye on Aiden. And now it was the middle of the night and it was hard to stay awake. She sat up in bed, arms curled around her legs, watching Aiden sleep.
[05:59] minutemarch: It took Cas a moment to find her, he looked for her on the couch and in the kitchen before checking her room. He knocked gently and poked his head around the door. "Can I come in?" he asked softly.
[06:00] lovedlea: Anna looked up, nodding a little bit. And then she realized he probably couldn't see her in the dark. "Yeah, sure. Come in."
[06:04] minutemarch: "Thanks." He moved deftly in the dark and settled beside her on the bed. He put and arm around her shoulders. "Relax, love. You can sleep while I'm here if you want."
[06:06] lovedlea: Anna was tense for a moment, but it didn't last. She relaxed against him and closed her eyes. "I'm not tired."
[06:08] minutemarch: "Maybe but you look wired. You need a rest." He rubbed her arm. "You can close your eyes and just rest if you want. I don't mind. I don't even think you should be down here."
[06:09] lovedlea: "I don't want to kick Sam out of his room." Anna let herself relax, pressing her cheek against his shoulder. She sighed, still trying to stay awake. He wasn't wrong, she was wired, pushing herself too hard for too long.
[06:12] minutemarch: "Sam's a big boy. He can move about the house without being psychologically damaged," Cas said lightly.
[06:13] lovedlea: "I'm already interrupting your life, Cas. If you just keep Aiden upstairs sometimes until everyone gets their powers back, that'll be okay."
[06:14] minutemarch: "Um, we kinda invited you here knowing that. It's OK. It's really ok. Just relax like we asked you here to do."
[06:16] lovedlea: Anna sighed, pressing her face against his shoulder. She wrapped her arms around him for comfort. "I know. It's just... hard."
[06:19] minutemarch: "To have you here?" She had no idea yet what was really going on. "Well... can't say it's been dull."
[06:22] lovedlea: "That's what I mean. I'm interrupting your life." Anna had a vague idea of what was going on. She knew Dean had admitted to something she was trying to avoid for the sake of not hurting those she loved.
[06:24] minutemarch: "Yeah... and you think we hate that, yeah?" He smiled gently.
[06:25] lovedlea: "Mostly, yeah."
[06:26] minutemarch: "That's... not really the case. Has Dean talked to you?"
[06:27] lovedlea: "Jo talked to me."
[06:27] minutemarch: "Yeah? What did she say?"
[06:30] lovedlea: "That it's my fault Dean wants a kid and he..." Anna sighed. "I told her I could go, she said no."
[06:31] minutemarch: "Oh. OK. You're fault huh. I don't think that's all there is to it. Is that all she said?"
[06:32] lovedlea: "No, I don't know. I just... don't understand why you would want me here."
[06:33] minutemarch: "Because I love you? You know that."
[06:35] lovedlea: "I know. But Jo didn't sound very happy about it. And you've all been... I don't know... distant."
[06:37] minutemarch: "Yeah... we've had some stuff."
[06:38] lovedlea: "I have no idea what that means."
[06:42] minutemarch: "Anna... you know how Dean feels about you, right?
[06:43] lovedlea: Anna nodded a little, pulling back some and tensing up a little. "Jo mentioned it."
[06:43] minutemarch: "Dean and I had a talk to... It was a good talk."
[06:44] minutemarch: "Shocking but... I think Dean was relieved. I got to relieve him."
[06:46] lovedlea: "Okay...?"
[06:47] minutemarch: "Basically, I love Dean and Jo, which you know. I love Dean I want him to be happy with us. Did... you and Jo part on good terms?"
[06:49] lovedlea: "I guess. We made cake. I don't think she's upset with me."
[06:50] minutemarch: "Did... you get any closer?"
[06:50] lovedlea: "Hmm?"
[06:51] minutemarch: "I mean... Anna... had Dean spoken to you recently?"
[06:52] lovedlea: "About what, Cas? He talked to me before the power came back on and it was..." awkward.
[06:53] minutemarch: "I mean about us. All of us."
[06:54] lovedlea: "About what, Cas?" Anna leaned up a little, rubbing a hand over her face. She was too tired for this conversation right now. Maybe ever.
[06:55] minutemarch: "I think... Anna, Dean has an offer for you."
[06:56] lovedlea: "What kind of offer?"
[06:56] minutemarch: "I told him I'd try."
[06:57] lovedlea: Anna was drawing all the wrong conclusions. "Is that why I'm here?"
[06:58] minutemarch: "No. This all came up after you arrived. And is what why you're here?"
[06:59] lovedlea: "I don't know. Whatever this is."
[07:00] minutemarch: "Anna... he wants to... he really should be telling you this."
[07:01] lovedlea: "He wants to...?" Anna sat up, pushing away a little. "Is that why you're upset? You and Jo?"
[07:01] minutemarch: Cas smiled a little. "Do I look upset?"
[07:02] lovedlea: "No. Not now."
[07:02] minutemarch: "Yeah. Because Dean and I had a talk. He loves me. Completely. So it's gonna be OK."
[07:04] lovedlea: "Cas, this isn't what I wanted. This is why I stayed away. You're married and I'm... not supposed to be here."
[07:05] minutemarch: "And my husband is in love with you and... and I think I'm OK with it."
[07:06] lovedlea: "That doesn't make any sense."
[07:06] minutemarch: "I'm married to two people..." [07:06] minutemarch: "And I love and trust my husband." [07:07] minutemarch: "And my wife."
[07:07] lovedlea: "And you don't need me in the middle of that."
[07:08] minutemarch: "Dean would not have brought this to us unless it was really important to him."
[07:10] lovedlea: Anna sighed, leaning back against the headboard. "So what now?"
[07:12] minutemarch: "Now we... get closer."
[07:12] lovedlea: "Oh..."
[07:13] minutemarch: "You and me. You and Jo. You and Dean need to wait for us."
[07:13] lovedlea: "Jo's okay with that?"
[07:14] minutemarch: "She needs to ease in slow too. And I'm not sleeping with you without talking to her and Dean... maybe they could even be there."
[07:16] lovedlea: "Oh." Anna turned to look at him, looking slightly nervous and apprehensive. "I didn't know you wanted things to change."
[07:18] minutemarch: "I... didn't really. I am content with my beautiful spouses and our beautiful house but I can't miss the fact there can be good in this. I did say no more. No one else. I want time with each of them. This is gonna take time to ease into but... I'd like to kiss you. You know... to see what I feel."
[07:22] lovedlea: Anna turned her head to look at him, still apprehensive about hurting them. "Yeah... okay..."
[07:23] minutemarch: "And relax. It's just a kiss." He took her hand and shifted a little to face her better. "And I care for you however this goes." He leaned in and pressed a tender, slow, kiss to her lips, giving her time to respond if she wanted.
[07:25] lovedlea: Anna closed her eyes, gripping his hand tight, worried but still clinging to him for support. She took in a breath and hesitated when his lips pressed to hers. And then, after a moment, she leaned into him.
[07:26] minutemarch: Cas took the kiss slowly, almost cautiously, trying to understand what he was feeling as he did so. As it went on he relaxed a little and opened his mouth.
[07:28] lovedlea: Anna pressed her other hand to his chest and let herself settled closer to him. She let Cas lead the kiss, trying not to push things. When his lips parted, hers did the same. Cas made her feel safe.
[07:30] minutemarch: He started making small sounds in the back of his throat as he leaned into her, his hand rose up to run its fingers through her hair as he deeped the kiss.
[07:33] lovedlea: Anna tightened her fingers around his, making a little startled sound of surprise as they got closer. She sunk closer to him and breathed slowly, making soft moans in response to his.
[07:36] minutemarch: Cas couldn't deny there was a spark and, for a few minutes, he was caught up in the kiss. The feel of it, the fact it was someone he had cared for so long. The fact they had battled with as much heast as they kissed now. He pressed his chest to hers, pulled her close.
[07:39] lovedlea: Anna's hand clenched the front of his shirt and pulled closer. She could feel her heart thudding in her chest, her breath hitching. But it was the safest she'd felt at least since the power went out, possibly longer. His attention was good for her, for both of them probably.
[07:42] minutemarch: He dropped his head and shifted the kiss to her throat, quickly little kissed down around and up to her mouth again. He thought of Jo and knew he would have to tell her, gladly tell her, what they were doing. He would tell Dean too but that was less important. Dean was already cool with it. He wanted to be sure Jo was too before he kissed Anna again. In this moment he was content to keep his hand on her shoulder, the other on her hand. He was careful not to go too far even as his lips raveged hers. "Think... it's... a good... start." He panted between kisses.
[07:47] lovedlea: Anna nodded, moaning her agreement. She sighed as Cas pulled away from her lips to kiss down and then up again. She panted a bit, and then caught his mouth again happily, starting to really relax into it, to really want it. She settled against his body, warm and comfortable in his arms. It wasn't what she'd expected tonight, or ever, but it wasn't something she wanted to let go of now that she had it.
[07:49] minutemarch: Cas could feel he was having a good effect on her and, even if they never kissed again, he had given her something. He's given her a little peace. A distraction. "You're so beautiful," he said as he unfurled his tongue into her mouth. "always thought so."
[07:51] lovedlea: Anna had no idea how to respond to that. She hadn't felt beautiful, especially lately. But the whole idea that they wanted to draw her into their relationship was flattering. It made her feel so much happier than she had, so much less alone. Anna slipped her hand out of his to wrap her arms around him, she just wanted to be closer.
[07:55] minutemarch: Cas let her hold him, sensing her need for contact. He kissed her all over her face as much to give his jaw a rest as anything. "Anna... do you... like this idea of being with us? If we can... I..." He stopped. Lowered his head. "Still feels a little like... need to talk to Jo before..." It was far too easy to just keep going and he didn't want to do that to his Jo. "I... think I should just hold you now. That OK? I need to talk to Jo about what happened. And... tell her what I felt."
[07:57] lovedlea: Anna nodded, pressing her face into the crook of his neck. "It's okay. Can you just... stay down here tonight? Keep an eye on Aiden?"
[07:58] minutemarch: "Yeah. Yeah I can. I can stay. I want to stay." He stroked her hair as he settled beside her. "Anna..."
[08:00] lovedlea: Anna wiggled a bit, sliding down into bed more. She didn't let go of him, snuggling close. She just wanted to keep that feeling. She wanted to sleep through the night, and he made her feel safe. "Thank you."
[08:01] minutemarch: "We're all here for you, you know," Cas said. "We love you." And I definately felt a spark. "Did you... feel anything?"
[08:03] lovedlea: "I felt..." everything she'd been trying to keep herself from feeling since she got here. "I felt happy..." She sighed, shaking her head a bit. "Sorry, that sounds stupid. I'm just... tired, I guess."
[08:04] minutemarch: "You being happy never sounds stupid to be. Now sleep. I'll watch the baby. I'll stay all night."
[08:04] lovedlea: "Okay. Thank you, Cas." Anna sighed again, nuzzling into him and letting herself drift off.