"I don't know." Dean looked down at his feet. He breathed in deep, and forced himself to look up and meet Cas' eyes again. "I wasn't looking. I thought I was over her." Keeping his gaze steady took a concentrated effort. Dean had rarely had to confront his feelings like this before. With Dad, he cowered and complied, With Sam, he threw punches and Sam threw punches and there was never any sort of chick flick moment.
"I love you, Cas. You and Jo are my life. And I'd be happy with the two of you forever, but...But this is happening and I dont' know how to stop it. She's a huge part of our lives and that's not going to change, and...and I wanted you to know what I'm going through. I'm not going to act on it." Dean maintained the eye contact. I'm not interested in cheating on my spouses, but you deserve to know."