WHO: Anna & Gabe WHEN: after Cas' nightmare WHERE: Anna's room WHAT: Gabe berates his baby sister RATING: nc17
Gabe: OK, Anna. You need to suck some things up. Anna: Like what? Gabe: Like the fact Cas is in trouble and all I hear about is how he doesn't want you. Anna: First off, I never said a damn thing to you. Secondly, Cas does not want nor need my help. You're so damn worried about him, YOU fix it. Gabe: Fix what Anna? Anna: You said he was in trouble, whatever it is, you fix it. I'm done trying. Gabe: You're giving up on him now? Anna: Not giving up. Backing off. Indefinitely. I'm not going to force myself on him. He obviously doesn't want me around. Gabe: Well, I have to say your maturity is filling me with confidence. Anna: Gabriel, he doesn't want me around. What am I supposed to do? Gabe: Why don't you think he doesn't want you around? Anna: Because we can't spend five minutes together without him getting pissed off. Gabe: And why is that? Anna: Don't know. Gabe: No theories at all? Anna: Not really, no. I figured asking him what was wrong would be counter-productive to the whole leaving him alone thing. Gabe: I can tell you. He's independent. He's had to be independent of the old order for a long time. So we come bumbling and, snap, he's threatened and impatient. Not to mention we're angels Anna: So, once again, we're back to: he doesn't want me around. Gabe: At the moment? He's ambivalent. But he's also happy to see you. Anna: He's really not. Because he's reserved? Unsettled? Anna: Because as soon as he realized I was me, he couldn't leave fast enough. Gabe: Are you sure that was why? Anna: Yes Gabe: And not what you were doing? Anna: I was doing exactly what he asked me to do. Gabe: I need details, Anna. Anna: You weren't watching? I'm shocked. So this whole let's berate Anna for being selfish thing is just you being pretentious. Why am I not surprised? Gabe: Oh I was watching. I want your take. Anna: You want me to tell you what happened so you can tell me I was wrong. You know what, I don't have the patience for this today. Let's just cut to the chase and you tell me what to do to fix it and I'll do it, because that's what I do. You give me orders and I follow them. Gabe: I'm off duty but if you want advice? Don't coddle him. He hates it. Anna: He asked me to! He wouldn't let go of me! Gabe: Not then... when he was stable. I'm not saying he's easy to handle. He's messed up, Anna. You ever think he was just upset cause you told him no? Anna: Does it really matter? The point is, he's upset. At me. Again. Every single time. I'm just done trying. I can't do anything right and trying just seems to make it worse. If he wants me, he knows where to find me. Gabe: He's human, Anna. He's not Castiel anymore. You have to stop expecting him to be. Anna: I don't expect anything. Gabe: You don't want him to return your feelings? Anna: I want him to stop hating me. Gabe: He doesn't hate you. He's hurting and frustrated and co-dependent and trying to keep it together, badly but he doesn't hate you. Anna: And I make things worse for him. It's fine - I mean, it's not fine, but he needs me to be away so I'll stay away. Gabe: So why is it all or nothing with you? Anna: Because I tried a little bit and that didn't work. Gabe: Maybe he needs space but if you don't learn how to approach him it won't help when he doesn't come looking for you. It will just happen over and over Anna: It won't happen over and over because I'm not going to keep invading his space. You don't seem to see that he doesn't want me there. He doesn't. It's very clear that he can't spend five minutes with me without being miserable. Gabe: And why is that? Anna: I don't know, Gabriel. I'm clueless. I keep screwing things up, so why keep trying? If all I can do is hurt him, why do you keep pushing me? Gabe: Because it's not all you can do. Anna: Oh, it is. I don't know if you've had a glance into my future, but there's about thirty years where all I did was hurt him, and it apparently keeps going even here. Gabe: You didn't hurt Cas. You hurt Castiel. The angel. Who isn't here. Anna: You can't compartmentalize who he is, Gabe. I'm not human anymore, but that doesn't mean I'm not still Anna. I still remember that part of myself. Gabe: Now I think we're onto something. Anna: I think if you have something to say to me, you should just say it instead of spending hours dragging me through the mud until we both get frustrated and you eventually give up and tell me anyway. I don't have the patience for your dr. phil routine right now. Gabe: He's not Castiel. He doesn't want to be Castiel and he sure as fuck doesn't want to be an angel. Anna: I don't agree, but it doesn't have anything to do with what we were talking about before. It doesn't change anything. Gabe: It changes everything, I'm afraid. You can't take him back and if you try he really will start to hate you. Anna: I'm not trying anything. I didn't try to take him anywhere. Gabe: But tell me you don't see him as your little solider from yon. Anna: He's Cas, Gabriel, I see him as Cas. I wanted him to be independent and look at that, there he is. Somewhere along the line I became obsolete, so fine. I never imagined I would piss him off this much, but if that's the case I will just suck it up and deal. Gabe: By ignoring him. Anna: Not ignoring him. If he wants me around, he'll come find me. It's only ignoring if he wants my attention, which he doesn't. Gabe: And every time he find you you fight. Anna: Yep. Although that's only happened once or twice, because after that, he stopped looking for me. I apparently didn't get the hint until just now. Gabe: You know, maybe you're right. Maybe he's better off away from you for a while. Anna: He seems to think so. Gabe: And you're butt hurt because he's getting help but it's not from you. Anna: I'm not hurt. Well, okay, I am. But that's not what this is about. I want him happy and I make him depressed when I'm around. Gabe: Maybe you do. Maybe you don't get what he's trying to tell you. Anna: He's not telling me anything. He gets mad and he goes away. Gabe: And that tells you what? Anna: That he needs to work off some energy. Gabe: That he gets frustrated. When do people get frustrated? Anna: Around me, apparently. Gabe: I mean in general Anna Anna: Gabriel, seriously, I love you, but I'm going to hit you. I'm tired of playing twenty questions. Either tell me how to fix it, or give up. Gabe: Nothing I tell you will help if you don't understand the problem. Now answer the question. Anna: How about you just tell me what the problem is. Gabe: I can't. Anna: Well then you can just give it up as hopeless. Gabe: You make him feel bad about what he is now. Anna: You sound like a broken record. I tried fixing that. It didn't work. Gabe: You made progress. Anna: What progress? I didn't make progress. I invaded his room and made him run away. That sounds like the opposite of progress. Gabe: Did he ask you to stay after he left? Anna: No, he didn't. Gabe: He said you could stay. Anna: He said I could stay if I wanted, which is Cas-speak for "I can't deal with you but I can't tell you to leave". Gabe: Yeah, but he used to shout Anna: And you think him shutting down is progress? Gabe: Maybe. Anna: Basically what you're telling me is that I should sit outside his door patiently until he decides its okay to let me in. Gabe: Nothing like that. But the idea of waiting for him to come to you isn't bad. Anna: Then what the hell are we having this conversation for?! You dragged me through the mud so that you could tell me that I was doing the right thing? They assigned you the wrong job, you're a terrible therapist. Gabe: There's a different between shutting off and changing your strategy. Anna: Like I said, if he comes to me, fine. If not, I'll live. That's not shutting off. Gabe: Maybe it was your tone. Anna: I'm sorry. Should I speak to you in valley girl next time I make a decision? Gabe: That might help. Anna: Keep dreaming. Gabe: Always. Anna: Are you done now? Can I go sulk in peace? Gabe: Or you could not sulk. Anna: Not an option. Well, unless I go incorporeal. Gabe: Why are you sulking? Anna: You're kidding, right? Gabe: You found something to do to help him. Why sulk? Anna: Just because it's the right thing to do, doesn't mean I have to like it. Gabe: That's true Anna: So are you done making me miserable for your own personal amusement? Gabe: And you wonder why he- Anna: You're the one that spent the last two hours poking at my wounds so that you could tell me I was doing the right thing all along. Gabe: It's my job. Anna: To make me feel worse than I already feel? Take a day off. In fact, I wouldn't argue if you quit entirely. Gabe: Maybe I'm not here to make you feel better? Anna: You know what, you're right. I got it. Are we done? Gabe: Yep. Anna: Good.