Billy felt that tension, that awkwardness as he too had built such heavy and high walls to protect Teddy from ever needing to know about this particular insecurity. Why he'd worked so hard at it, he wasn't sure. Normally they shared everything with one another, but now, with all the tension, it was clear that some of it would seep into their relationship.
At any rate, Billy had missed the feel of those hands on the back of his neck. Sure, he'd missed that literally perfect body and all of Teddy's beauty (and Teddy was absolutely beautiful, regardless of what form he took according to Billy), but what he'd really missed was that touch, that comfort. He couldn't help but lean into the touch, affectionately seeking more contact from Teddy.