Lu + Ed (a significant time later)
It was my decision not to tell you. It wouldn't have helped. You couldn't have done anything and he was dead. What benefit would it have given anyone else to know? It wouldn't have. It quite literally only would have stressed you out and he was quite literally dead and there was not a single thing to be done.
And if it wasn't abundantly clear, he had no idea I had the journal.
So I'd say 'may' might be a gross understatement for putting blame on someone else for my decisions merely because of their sheer existance.