Ed | Lu
You can't use that one to count as your silly example of giving her choice. I don't think any of us would have actually let it stand in the end. It would have been... too much. I don't think... it would have been too much, too much lost Edmund. Too much lost for... everything that was so different than we knew. And I don't mean that in some silly way, but - that even the underlying threat was [...] you know that doesn't matter now. And you know that that would merely distract me to something else entirely and back to there and talking about it and rambling about it and my feelings about it. But we're not talking about that. That was only the one time. I'm talking about the bigger picture and I won't, I won't get lost in little details that cause me to go on and on.
We did get Lill out of the Trader, after all.
Faith, goodness, kindness... being oblivious, being quite a bit silly, being you know - not... being able to see myself the way Susan sees herself. That all hurts too. Nothing isn't without its barbs, Ed. I'd just rather the happiness between the little jabs be lived, rather than... avoided because there might be jabs around the corner. You just to trust that maybe if you... fear the those jabs that, you now, maybe once in awhile you might avoid them.