owl to dad
Dad,

I'd write Mum, but I don't want her worrying. I just need...this thing with Justin and Zach...

I don't even know how I feel about it anymore. I've gone from angry to numb and that just terrifies me. How do you know the difference between forgiving and acting stupidly? I don't want to hold a grudge, but I don't possibly see how I can forget any of this. If I just go on like nothing happened, don't I set myself up for another round? That's what happened the first time. How do I know if I'm just a glutton?

I feel like I've no mates anymore, Dad. Save Hannah and Hermione and maybe Megan, but...they're all birds.

I didn't mean to lay this all on you. How are you?

Love,
Ernie

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