I don't hate effort or eschew it. I wouldn't say I LOVE it, but. Have you ever seen Wall-E? I'm not like one of those people in Wall-E. And to be fair, I think there're a lot of things we don't notice about a lot of people because we can only see what we can see, and, I think too, we see what we're looking for. Humanity is 100% limited by expectation. And I'm really not going to let anyone die on me. It's not something I like.
I'm pretty sure I've been, let's call it, programmed to feel how I feel. So. It probably isn't really me. Maybe it is. I don't think I value life. I think I have a guilty conscience and those are far from the same thing. Idk that I want to admit to killing anyone in a letter posted in the USPS, but, shit happens, you know?
Per Bruce and no one being liked after him, no, knowing that doesn't really help. Thanks for trying though.
It isn't about you blaming me or not. Whether or not I 'deserved' blame, you would blame me, because you're human and that's what people do. I'm just not into that kind of thing. Um, finding out I like men isn't personality-changing, idt. Is it? You can say hi to my friend if you can find out who he is. But let's be clear that I have no interest in sleeping with him, and I'm 99% sure he has no interest in me, besides maybe some kind of confusion at how I've come this far in life being as incompetent as I am.