Re: Mulder/Scully
I cannot think of a single person I would tell of my alien abduction except for you. Unless it turned out to be a creepy postman in an alien costume. In which case, I think that I'd tell the proper authorities first. Either way, the government will not need to intercept anything between us on the matter, they will be able to read every probing detail in my tell-all book.
In all seriousness, I'm not big on earth shattering confessions. I'm pretty sure that I wouldn't tell a soul. We've already established that I'd tell you, so it might be better to say that I wouldn't tell a soul I really know. I also don't like to breach heavy subject matter with my inner circle. I've been through some really off-putting life experiences, and alien abduction would definitely be the cherry on top my fucked up sundae. Without a doubt, I would tell everyone that I am fine.
But okay. Fine and well are off limits. I wholeheartedly agree and hereby pinkie swear(with myself, of course) to not use any such banalities when you ask how I'm doing.
As a theory on paper, it looks solid. I can't say that my life echos such sturdiness. Be glad for this anonymous discourse, Scully. Because my flaws are bold as dragons and just as glaring. You'd have to point out a lot of obvious flaws from my one statement if you were to lay it over the graph of my life and well-being for comparison. I think for me that happiness is a constant work in progress, and maybe that it how it's supposed to be. Maybe nothing just comes. If I think about all of my life like the spread of all the galaxy, and happiness is a comet, I can put myself in its path. I won't immediately have happiness by taking this step, but the comet is eventually going to come around. I think if I do something and it is good for me, that puts me in line with the comet. This might not actually be how science, space, or emotions work.
I can't say that it was a single realization or event that motivated me, just the realization that what I'd been doing for my whole life wasn't worked and it never really had.
True love might be too vast and varied a topic for even a couple seasoned agents like us to tackle. I've seen it and believe that it exists, but I do not think that it exists for everyone. I have a little more faith in the possibility of getting abducted by aliens most days.
Knowing what you know now, would you change what you did?