And I am. I feel like I should feel younger, but instead I feel older, with all the carefree jubilance of youth. It's not a bad place to be, truthfully.
Did you do what you wanted when you were in the military? I think I just don't have the aptitude for being horrible. Or, I have no desire to be horrible in the ways that I've seen humans be horrible to one another. It's not about being better than, I'm difficult in my own way, but not wanting to revisit those things.