Re: Baskin/Robbins
[The sender finally includes something painted in their own hand. It is professionally matted, but not framed.]
Thank you, Robbins - for the little bit of beauty added to my day. [Included is a Polaroid of the stained glass hanging in a window, casting early-morning rainbows onto a bed of rumpled white sheets.]
I think that I am human. Certainly close enough to call it even. I would like to think that I am not so selfish, but that might be a moot point due to the very nature of my existence. I am single, regrettably. I have pets, but other than that I only care for myself. I long for love but only seem to pursue casual encounters that do nothing to fulfill my emotional desires. I’m in my 20’s. All of these factors point to me being a selfish millennial, more concerned with getting my proverbial dick wet than caring for another human being in a meaningful way. But I don’t think that’s entirely who I am. At least, I hope not.
I’m glad to know that your thinking doesn’t fall in line with those who have treated me as less-than in my life. If anything, I’ve lived with the hope that my empathy and compassion is an asset, rather than a flaw.
I think I am in the same boat as you in that regard. I certainly don’t believe in a higher power. If anything, there is a mindfulness in certain religions that appeal to me. It’s never been about finding purpose in some list of commandments, though.
Your sense of hope sounds delightful. I think that might be one of my favorite things: deadwood smoldering on the beach in early morning’s light.
You’d rather be figuring it out than know? I think that’s where we might differ. I agonize in not knowing my own wants, subconscious or otherwise.