Burning churches? Should I inform the local pastor?
J, you get on my ass for making assumptions about you, but comments about only being good for one thing are telling. Do you expect me to say that isn't the case or do you say it because you believe it? I'm lacking in self loathing so I don't know the rules. Please inform me.
Why must you be liked to survive here? I think this town has its fair share of unlikable people who seem to be doing a fine job of thriving. It has a high percentage of people who seem to think they're not good enough for this world, and I have to wonder if that's happenstance.
Be you.
I realize you're going to tell me that's trite or you're going to bite my ass off, but I still think it's the best way, especially if people want you to fuck off anyway, as you say they do. You might as well be yourself and enjoy what you can while you can. What's the worst that can happen? They hate you? You claim they already do.
My main rule in life, J, is to live life on my terms. It hasn't failed me yet, and I recommend trying it. It involves not putting yourself down at every turn, and so might require some practice.
The fact that we're having this conversation is indicative of depth you claim not to have.