Re: Call: Cat C/Reece E
I don't know if you can, Reece. You can't tell me what you like about me, or what love feels like to you, or how you feel about me physically, right? So I have to just trust, and trusting is hard for me, and it's not something I'm good at. And what I've always valued most about myself I don't even have anymore, and you never liked it much in the first place, so my self-esteem is kind of shot at present. I need to figure out how to not hate this body, and, I don't know. I don't know. I get I ruined the sex thing forever, and that now it's something you feel bad about, and that won't go away anytime soon. I get that was me, but it was hard when that's all I saw that was unquestionably good about me. It's not an excuse, but it's an explanation. [A beat.] I want to feel loved and happy, and I think you want that too.