Re: log: patrick and adrian punch things
"I did not think about it. Man, I do not want to think about it now. I understand you are fine with your sexuality and this is not a problem for you. It is most certainly a problem for me. I am not comfortable with it. I am most ashamed and embarrassed about anyone finding out. Newt's bro implied he knew, and I wanted to crawl under the bar and die. Man, I am not all right with this, and I only say these things to you because I owe you, not because I am all right discussing it. I am not. I do not believe I am gay."
Patrick did not immediately understand what Adrian was saying he believed, but the comment about the clubs was much easier to focus on. The longer this conversation went on, the more Patrick felt uncomfortable, man, and he wished this was not the case. "Man, it is fine. Going and getting the question answered once and for all will be for the best." If what he felt at the prospect of going was any indication, then he would walk out able to put all of this behind him. Newt could be a fluke, dude. These things happened, and Patrick was entirely counting on this to be true. "Adrian. Stop. We are not a couple. We are not together. He is my bro, and we treat each other like bros treat each other. Do not make this a thing. It is not a thing."
It was probably most evident Patrick was going to go into full hyperventilation mode if Adrian did not accept his personal vision of self. Sure, putting himself out there had been an offering to his bro, a thing of peace, but now he was starting to get antsy, man, which was no new thing. Newt had experienced it repeatedly. Patrick's self-hatred in this particular regard was most definitely showing.
He watched Adrian drop, and he considered. "This weekend, would you like to go fight something that is not me? Would this help?"