Re: Cat C/Adrian M
We're selfish in order to survive. It's a survival instinct, darling, be glad of it. [...] Why do you owe them any more than they owe you? You don't. Life isn't like that. No one is easy. We're all pains in the ass. And if Newt cuts you off? Then you get up, and you dust yourself off, and you find someone who is willing to worship at your feet. No one should make you feel bad about yourself, and no one should make you feel you need to change in order to be close to them. No one should make you feel like an obligation. Darling, why do you want to be around these people? The goal is to find people who see us, understand us, love us how we are. Anything else? Leave it alone.
I think you can try. I think you can stop being sad, start being flirty and interesting and engaging. He obviously thought you were attractive once, and attraction is easy to rekindle if you make yourself something desirable instead of something sad. But, Adrian, my point remains. If he doesn't want you how you are? Fuck him. Fuck them both. Fuck them all. Find someone who thinks you're perfect and bask in it for a night. Let them tell you all the things they adore about you. Believe it. It's the best medicine, darling.