Re: Cat C/Adrian M
I feel angry and jealous, which I told them. I also know they were under the influence of something strange in the book, and they were both drunk the night after, but they both keep telling me they wanted it. And I know Newt likes him. I could tell. Then he told me he would do all sorts of things to Patrick if he would let him. He was trying to get me angry, but it's true.
I told them I think they should see each other if they want. Newt wants to. Patrick would want to if he could get over how he feels about liking men, and how guilty it makes him because of me. I just keep thinking about the things he's been through lately. He's beating himself up about it so much, but I am still angry with him too. I shouldn't be. He's young and confused. [...] I told Newt I knew he preferred Sue to me. I said some things to him I shouldn't have said. I love him, but sometimes he can be so difficult to talk to. [...] I should be grateful. He pushed me to get angry with him. That's difficult for me. It didn't feel so heavy when I told him how angry I was. So I do have him to thank for that. And Patrick would do anything for me. I know he would.