Re: Phonecall: Des/Pat
[Huff. Couch springs.] It's not the coming back, it might have been the going at all. Because I diluted the problem, I didn't solve it. I feel like I got polished down for a couple of months, but now my sharp edges are coming back and I'm snagging on things again. Both of the books I went into had dead people, and I don't think that's a coincidence. I guess at least they spooked me back into a corner because I almost did something irrational before that. I don't feel particularly connected to the living since I've been back, not like before I left. I know my mom was alive and Wyatt was here in the house then, but it's more than that. I had people I could talk to, which I'm trying to find again. I had you, and I feel like I hurt you badly.