Re: Email anon
I'm not good at slow or whatever, and yeah, get with the lingo, baby.
He didn't START until he couldn't deal with my shit, yeah? Before that he was sober, so I got some responsibility. If my shit wasn't so messed up, then it wouldn't be how it was. Not just for him, yeah? Lots of people can't handle my life or whatever, and they fell the fuck apart, so it's me on some level. I'm toxic or something, like a fucking Britney song.
He left because he wasn't into me anymore. He came back like four months later, but I was already with my guy, and I fucked that up bad too.
Why didn't you want that? Were you scared of it? I mean, bubbles are about being safe, yeah? So, were you just scared? Is she still out there? Do you talk? Do you miss her? Did you stop wanting her before you met your wife - Wife, yeah? You were lit hitched?
So you think I'm exhausting him?
[...] Why isn't it good enough or too good? And loneliness isn't something you can pay to fix. You can buy a fuck or things, and maybe you won't be ALONE, but that's not the same as not being lonely.