Re: Email anon
Hold on. You're speeding through the explanation because you know it all. I don't. Let me see if I understand.
You were with a guy that you loved, who held out on saying whether he did or he didn't. And he said he did, and then he left. (I don't understand how this is him leaving because you were a mess, did he say that?)
One man deciding he's going to leave isn't every man. Some men leave. I've left a girl before. And if, as I would imagine, leaving had fuck all to do with you and everything to do with him, then it doesn't surprise me you didn't see it coming. But it does explain why you're trying to see if your man now is going to leave. But the man you have now, he's told you he loves you. You've tried to leave him and he's still around. Do you not think maybe he's not going to bail? You're more likely to do it than him.
No. I couldn't. I have no desire to make anyone else happy. And so long as I can have sex when and where I want it, I don't have any inclination toward persuading someone to believe they're happy so I can sleep with them.