Re: Misha B/Damian W
Feeling bad bout things ain't self-pity. Dami, I'm saying all I see is a few comments, but I ain't the one that has your relationship with Dietre, and I can only interpret it through my own way of seeing. I ain't even sure this is bout this conversation. I reckon this is bout a whole lot of conversations had fore, and I know Dietre ain't no saint. I talk to him a whole lot, and the boy's selfish and likes to focus on his own misery a whole lot. You assumed he messaged bout his own concerns, and I would never have gone there, so we see different. I ain't saying you see wrong, and all I want is to understand how you see. And you're right bout friendliness, but you ain't entirely right. It ain't friendliness. If it was friendliness, it would make sense some, but you ain't unfriendly to them. It's bout language and softening words, which is just damn silly of folks. [Honestly:] I think it's too much for me. Abe made me feel awful. We're trying our best, and you're right it ain't never nough for folks.
We all got issues, and no one's an expert on things, so why take their word as law? Don't. I don't know nough bout business running to know if she's right or wrong, but I know the folks here, at the carnival, expect us to be all bout them and their needs. I ain't sure it's like that everywhere, and I don't reckon it's for us, managing folks, not yet at any rate. But, nurie, you ain't flawed and weak. You're a perfectionist who gives a damn, and is trying to get things right. Problem is, I ain't sure there's a right with folks. Your family's just the same. You reckon you're failing and weak on account of not being able to draw them together and get them sussed, but them people, Dami, there ain't no fixing them. You're doing all the right things, but the outcome ain't on you. It's on a bunch of folks that can't see past their own noses, and they don't even ken that they don't.
Hush. Speaking on you helps me feel useful. You let me carry on.