Re: Misha B/Damian W
Self-pity is, by its very virtue, self-involved. [...] You said nothing he said was wrong, so how can be he wrong? I do not know. I do not like him, but I should not let him get to me. Still, I am all cracks and everyone is seeping in, and I, in turn, am baring too much of myself, which I can never undo. [...] I am not friendly, which means nothing I do has merit to these people. I could give them each thousands of dollars and they would simply tell me it was about time. Speaking of which, I am somewhat glad Abe has gone. [...] You think the carnival is too much for me?
I am certain the same could be said of me, yes? On all counts. [...] [He shares this.] Catalone said she was speaking as the owner of 'multiple businesses.' I want to think she is wrong. That I do not need her to tell me how to do what I feel I am doing well enough. That I do not need her to tell me that people are selfish, as I know this. That I do not need reminding that I am weak for allowing my feelings to muddle my responses. I do not know. All I know is the longer I spoke with her and Dietre, the more helpless, flawed, weak, angry, and irrational I felt. I continue to wish I were emotionally dead.
Now I will point out your bias, Misha. Too, I will point out this is enough speaking on me.