Re: FLEET: Misha B/Damian W I will say then, 'I understand and/or I agree.'
I understand this feeling. It is more familiar to you to be mad, therefore it feels safer. However, the implication then is that you believe there to be something the matter with you. It is easier if that 'fault' is madness, as again, it is familiar and cannot be cured, so to speak. But, I do not think there is anything wrong with you. Perhaps you struggle, due to what has happened to you and what you have been through and who and what you are. This does not mean there is something wrong with you.
As I said, I am unable to explain it with any clarity or sense.