Re: Jack P/Newt P
I didn't mean the number of times. It's the people she lets do it. I think if you matter to her, your opinion matters to her. And she's not very skilled at hiding how she's feeling if you know her more than an iota, but I'd rather you didn't tell her that. It's the only way I keep myself out of trouble. She shut down on me too and I'd only just bailed myself out of trouble the last time.
Oh, I don't mean expectations like that. But the way somebody's meant to react. Behave. The way I'm meant to think, am I meant to think of it a certain way, to make reparations for being an arse a certain way. Cat is at least predictably sharp snap and you can figure your way out. Destiny I think sees the good in people. Which means I'm perpetually worried at what she's looking at. She's probably evasive because we did sleep together, although neither of us was especially ourselves. As Cat likes to remind me, I'd spent the night as Robin Hood.
You don't exactly feel like Mother to me. But what you do remind me of is England. Of the way somebody can say everything in nothing back there, and the way you don't know what they think because manners are usually impeccable. And then I don't want to be a disappointment, so there's that. I find you difficult to read, which is why I reached for translation, because I didn't want to walk on eggshells with you.
So no one from back home knew? It's not just me, not paying attention to you when you were home?