Re: Jack P/Newt P
Ah. See, if I were thinking like Cat, I would think that by suggesting there were things you oughtn't tell her, there's a reason you oughtn't which is that it isn't like holding them to yourself. Ergo, she's not trusted with them. I've spent far too long trying to parcel out that logic. I don't think she often lets herself be wounded by people.
Oh, it has absolutely nothing to do with who she's with. It has everything to do with the fact that I feel like a raging disappointment every time I talk to her, and I can remember the aftermath with bitter perfect recall. I'm going to try again, but every time I talk to someone I think I'm disappointing, it's like standing in the drawing room in front of mother. Working out what exactly you say in order not to puncture whatever there's there to puncture, as invisible as it might be. It makes me feel like walking on eggshells, and I can't bloody stand it. I'd rather the drama were known, or at least I knew if they'd blow or they'd throw things, that it's not going to be uncertain and moody forever. So I stamp on them, somewhat.
I have it on authority that the dead don't need to stop communicating if they're dead. So it's different, then. You went to school for it? And the writing, it's magical too. Right then.