Re: Lou D/Cris M
[...] Well, it was purely about the sex. Nothing else. And when I strip my feelings about it before and after away, it was very good sex. [...] This is going to sound terrible, but I didn't worry whether I was [...] pleasing. Whether he thought I was attractive, or whether I was any good, you know. I knew he was there because I was paying him. As a result, I didn't need to wonder whether he might rather be having sex with someone else. That question had already been resolved. Not needing to worry about whether I was what he wanted took a lot of the sturm and drang out of things, and I was able to just enjoy the sex.