Re: Sasha J/Damian W
This is not why I have contacted you, if that is what you are thinking. [He considers.] The advantages would be that no one else could tell him, as he would know, and therefore, he would not feel betrayed or whatever it is he would feel, and I would not have to spend energy fretting about such myself. The cons are I am certain he would be disappointed and attempt to intern me in a rehabilitation center, or try to take control of my becoming clean, by searching my room or me, etc. He might believe Misha, and others who know, were keeping secrets from him that he will feel he ought have known. And he is already miserable. It would likely increase this feeling.
You do not fuck everything up. I understand this feeling you speak of. I too have felt this way. But you are who you are, and they will either accept it, or they are not worth your time. This man, Abe, he likes you as you are, does he not? He is not ignorant to your flaws, such as they are. You will not fuck it up.