Re: Oliver K/Misha B
I don't know if I could love a friend. If family goes away, friends go away faster. Like Cris? I think of him as my friend. Sam too. I have made them art and stuff just because I think about them, because I want them to like me and not feel like... obligated? Because they let me work there, you know? And Cris checks on me all the time, he is a friend. Him and you and Damian? You're the only people who have really asked about me. Yeah, Jude once too, but... I think he just wants to know I'm like, not dead. He'd blame himself. Idk. Idk.
Honestly? No, no. I wanted to. I wanted to for months, but now. No. I'm not ready. I have to [....] not yet. I can't yet.