Re: painterlysmile@gmail.com/wordsnotaction@gmail.com
I know. But I show up. I even try a little.
You really think so? Isn't PTSD about having the shit that's really threatening linger long enough that you think it's still coming at you when it isn't? It would be insane not to start expecting it.
The fuck-ups working steps are just the ones who've got themselves an audience. Everyone fucks up. Perhaps not with the same stylistic flair. But with an audience, you're more aware of other people watching you than you're watching them. So you don't want to kill the kid, and you don't want to disappoint your guy. Good reasons. What about you?