Re: painterlysmile@gmail.com/wordsnotaction@gmail.com
Swinging for it? What's that mean? You didn't kill her, yeah?
Nah, man, I fear shit even when there's nothing there to fear. It's in my fucking head. PTSD, my therapist says. Shit triggers it, and it doesn't matter if there's nothing there really to fear. It's fucking stupid.
Why? I want to be ok. I'm more ok that way. I feel good, not scared of my own fucking shadow, yeah? It's not like being drunk. A nod's not like anything else, and I done a lot of shit.