Re: Sonrisa: Sam A & Cris M
Ok, so maybe it was stupid, and maybe she was insatiable or something, but she ALWAYS wanted him. Maybe she didn't have any follow through to herself right then, because she was gutted, yeah? Head heavy and limbs trembling, knees buckling, and her dizzy from hunger and emotional toll. But she still wanted him, and that was just how it was, and fuck if she could even lie to herself about it in her current state. It was just more scary layered atop scary, yeah? Being that into someone, but she just leaned into him exhausted, his blood still on her tongue, and her hands over his mouth.
And maybe she thought he would just not talk or something, which was dumb, and she let him tug her hands down and away. And, ok, blame hormones for how she started fucking crying when he said the rules wouldn't be his. And she thought she should explain, yeah? Clarify, something, through snot and tears. And it was easier, yeah? Talking while he tugged, and she didn't care about the art room. There would be time for her to clean up before class tomorrow, yeah? It didn't occur to her that she was going to sleep like a full fucking day, yeah? After this emotional thing, because she always did, sleep forever when her head got cotton heavy like this. It was something that warned of seizures, or that was what the neurologists said, but she wasn't thinking about neurologists, either.
So, yeah, he talked, and she babbled tired and unthinking, needing to concentrate on her steps, which just kept her talking more and more, more and more unthinking. "Al- It was his place, yeah? I never even got a key, and he locked everything from outside. His moms had a key, but I didn't. And Neil- I just had a room there, yeah? Ash had more control over that place than me, like with it actually being hers. I was like a guest, yeah? And I know it's your place. I don't want to push or anything. We can try a small time or something, if you want. IDK. I might piss you off or something. I wish I had a place you could move into." Thoughtless, words, yeah? "And I can come here when T comes, so it's just you two or whatever. It's ok." She nearly faltered, and she went quiet, focusing fully on the steps now.