Re: Call: Sam A/Cris M
I think you got expectations and you don't handle disappointment good. I think you want things to be easy and go a certain way and they never do, and then you feel like you did somethin' wrong or you're goin' about it wrong. [And with a huff, 'cause he knows this isn't going to go well.] I'm gonna be honest with you, nena. I'm really worried 'bout you goin' to score. I think if you're feelin' bad enough, you might be tempted to get heroin, or maybe your guy will see you and try to talk you into it and you won't know how to say no. I want you to know I trust you and I don't wanna take away your choice—the power you got to get only what you said you'd get, so I said okay to you doin' it, but I'm still worried and it's makin' me anxious and I'm prolly havin' a hard time talkin' 'causea that. If I could, I'd do everythin' for you, you know that. But, we both know I can't and it ain't righta me to, and it would only hurt you in the long-run, so I'm tryin'. I guess I just want you to know, if I start gettin' tense and confused, it's 'cause I'm tryin' to listen, like maybe I can control it if I know what's goin' on. That's prolly talkin' too much and that's prolly too much honesty, and I think now you're gonna hate me and think I don't trust you, when it's not about that at all, and that's workin' me up more. I wanna talk about our stuff and I wanna talk about why it's hard to talk, but I'm havin' a real hard time forcusin'.