Re: Call: Sam A/Cris M
Lou would DIE. [She smiles.] Casey's ALWAYS good with him. Casey's so fucking good with people. He never frazzles, yeah? He's so steady. I can't believe he was raised by the same fucking people sometimes, but he came out early and bailed to the states, and he was an addict a LONG fucking time. I think that made him different, yeah? [She laughs.] Papi, I'll see a flame because I fear it, huh? It doesn't matter if it's not there. Fucked up, yeah? But that's how it is. [Slow, long pause.] You still love her, yeah? Even tho she's gone. [She's quiet a bit before moving on about maybe having been happy with Al.] Nah, I don't think so. I was so fucking young. I would have wanted to try other things. Fifteen was too young. [But she laughs.] Neil was TERRIFIED of roots, papi. IDK why, but he was. He wasn't ever going to make shit official. I didn't want it obvious when I met him, yeah? I was eighteen and I wasn't ready for that shit either, not after Al, but IDK I like living with you, yeah? [Scoff.] I don't think she looks white, yeah? Maybe to you, but, nah, she looks Spanish. [She thinks about his Neil question.] Nah, not weird. I know why it kinda worked. He did whatever I said. Maybe I needed that, yeah? After being told what to do by a man since I was twelve.