Re: STILL SO ANON
I guess it can kind of be hard to get over being dead, and the people you trust not taking out the person who did it when they had the opportunity. I'm sort of over it now, but it took a while. A long while. And I guess I still think about it a lot. And a [...] friend of mine died about a year and a half ago. Now they're sort of back, but it isn't really them, which is [...] kind of hard to explain in a way that doesn't sound crazy as hell. But it's someone who looks like them, with all their memories, but it's not the same person. That person I knew is dead and buried. And I try to forget that when I talk to this new person, and treat them like the old one, but I can't. And I had a shitty time growing up or whatever. Listen, if I want to feel sorry for myself, I can take this and run with it for a mile.
Anyway, all of that basically means I try not to. I just try to keep pushing forward. Doesn't work always, or even a lot. It's hard not to be fucking mad at everything all the time.