Re: [Call: Sam A/Cris M]
I made things hard and bad, yeah? [In a rush, just getting words out thick Jersey and booze slur.] I was so sure it was gonna end, and it was all I was trying not to think about, and I got hung up thinking NOW, and now I realize how much I fucked up. I lit done nothing since before the baby was born, yeah? LITERALLY nothing. I been useless. I feel useless. And now I been thinking about Ian all the time. IAN IAN IAN and that's stupid as fuck. He's dead, yeah? He's dead. And you got all this stuff to deal with, but we always deal with mine, and I don't know how to turn all that off, yeah? I don't know how to be steady.