Re: Aubrey/Cris
Look, I appreciate what you did and I know you got questions. But, I gotta girl's brains all over my girlfriend's floor cause this girl didn't like me. I can't [...] I wanna do right by you, but I'm this close to screaming at everybody I'm talking to who ain't Sam and I ain't a nice guy. I dunno how long you've known Lou or how good. If you're close, you could always ask him, talk about the bad shit that's happened to his family and eventually, he'll take you there, I'm surea it. You already know my why. My why was cause I didn't want two catastrophes going down before I could even get in my damn car. You just wanna know why that's my why and a lotta those reasons ain't mine to tell. Any other day I wasn't cleaning this girl's blood offa my shoes, I could prolly thinka a way to tell you without betraying any confidences, but that ain't today. Lou's my brother, my family. I love the guy. But I'm in with these people cause I love Sam and she loves them. Lemme warn you now, huh? They always got shit going on. They got shit luck and make shit decisions, and a lotta em don't got coping skills. They gotta real penchant for martyring themselves, and Iris and Lou both don't got a whole lotta understanding when it comes to perspectives outsidea their own. These ain't bad things in and of themselves. It's just how it is. Lou's a brittle guy and he reacts big, thinking he's right when he ain't and it can be dangerous. He don't mean bad. He's a good guy and he wants what's best for his people, but what he thinks is best ain't always best. I know that's fucking cryptic, but it's what I got. So now you know that and you can decide what it means, if anything. And when this shit dies down, maybe I can shed more light, but right now, gringo, I just don't got it in me.