Re: In-person: Cris/Sam
If it wasn't me being selfish that made you unhappy with me, then what what was it? [She asks it mournful enough to make the baby cry in her drawer, still asleep, for a few seconds. But she's TRYING not to do that again, yeah? Whatever made him say he wasn't getting enough from her or whatever. And if it's not being selfish and not listening to his stuff, then she can't figure out what it could be, Maybe it's a little desperate, her tugging at the front of his camiseta with fingers that twist the thin and ribbed fabric.] You gotta explain to me, yeah? I gotta understand. [Like everything depends on it, and desperation in her inky blue eyes.] Me being here isn't enough. [It's not. It's not. She knows it's not.
He says he loves her, and she meets his gaze and blurts out fast.] I love you so fucking much. I do, yeah? I- [And then he kisses her hard, hands on her back and she kisses him soft, like she wants to melt into him or something - and she maybe kinda does.
The beanie slips a little, and she reclaims it with a sniffle, puts it on her own messy blonde.] It can't be about both of us. Then I get selfish. [It all comes down to that, yeah? And she knows they're spending too much time on it, not enough time on what REALLY matters.] Anyway, I'm FINE. Yeah? There's literally nothing wrong with me. Just let me do this, ok? I need to do this. [She had nightmares, yeah? The night before, but her nightmares never get too bad, since she's up with the baby before they have a chance to really boil over or whatever. It leads to dark circles beneath her eyes, but it's not such a bad price to pay, and it makes her feel good to get up before the baby can cry and wake him. It makes her feel like she's doing something right.] What have you been having nightmares about? Talk about that. The scenarios, I would do the same thing in all three, yeah? So talk about your nightmares.