Re: holly/jamie
I just kinda wish we had a chance to work this shit through BEFORE everyone went off the deep end. I totally ftr own the fact I have like, a lot of hangups. But I also, idk, I guess I figured since he'd done this like, a million times he would know wtf we're meant to be doing. Because I don't.
I have literally never done this before except when I was like, fifteen and dumb-fuck crazy in love with a total asshole. I don't care about making like, adjustments. I don't have like, a ton of expectation? I just really don't fucking like pressure. Which OK, OK, I know, I chose a fucking job that was all about pressure, and my coping shit for stress is, uh, shitty but I don't like pressure?
Wow, Holly. His now? srsly. I mean, idk. I don't want to be done but I also don't want to be like, rushed, I want to go at my own fucking pace. We literally have been doing this for real since February. We've been on one date. I don't want him to get like, impatient or whatever.