Re: holly/jamie
I know why he thinks he was a fuck, because he was protecting me. What I don't get and idt he'll get, is why that became so bad w/my sisters. That's what like, freaks me out? Because if he doesn't know it, if he doesn't get it, how can my sisters know it won't happen again?
Yeah not only the voicemail thing. But when we spoke after? He kind of like, idk. Made it sound like HE got to feel pissed off or w/ever because he decided I wasn't in the same place and like, told me I wouldn't be. And then fucking checked out. Like, acted like I was brushing him off or whatever.
I don't even get to fucking feel whatever the fuck I feel about the shitty move on voicemail. Because he doesn't like, just TELL me, he tells me how I feel about it. So yeah, idk. I told him how to fix it. Apologize to my sibs. Try and fucking fix it. They matter to me, and he knows how bad it was like, a year ago. Because I told him. idk what even to say? I don't even know WHAT to feel rn.