Dante "Inferno" Zaragoza - Death'll find you... (xolotl) wrote in repose,
Re: Hannah/Dante. Everything is science That's what I hate about doctors. They believe in science and experiments and the development of new procedures and processes but they'll never believe it unless it comes from another doctor. I've told Doc's things and had them basically ignore what I told them until they heard it from another doc and that shit just doesn't fly with me. Cause I know what I'm talking about and I'm not going to fucking sit there being quiet and let them walk the fuck all over me. I'd rather get pissed off and get thrown out when I was back in NYC and could just find another provider. Yeah. That damage thing. That's real. [......] I always tell people, the best part about being alive means you can try again, but sometimes the other people involved won't let you. They won't let you try and then you just gotta... Live with that too.
You're right about tears. People don't like sitting with things that don't feel good and American society teaches them to not learn how to be comfortable with sadness or to be willing to sit with it, because that shit takes time and can't be fixed with a fucking pill and it all always comes back to having to be productive and make someone money. That's why they want to shove pills at people, that's why they don't want you to be able to sit in your sad, because it's not serving someone it's not making something. But that's not fucking true, it's serving you and it's helping make you better at moving through life.
It's hard to be okay in darkness when others aren't.
I wasn't expecting it. It was more than coffee and book delivery but that's... That's complicated and confusing too.
Often, I find my happiness is with or because of people or places, and not because of things or events or... idk whatever the fuck makes people happy. I just want my people constantly around