Re: Hannah/Dante.
I think doctors think everything is science, at least the ones I've known, and if it doesn't fit, or it isn't in a book, or it doesn't make sense, then they think you're wrong in the head. I know I'm dreamy and weird and a lot of things, but I also know what's true. And they want you to lie, and to say you don't know the things you know, and then they'll say you're cured. But what good is making someone lie? I never understood. I'm sorry about the bad things that come when you're messy, though. I always think it's so sad that we affect other people when we can't help it, and after, when we can help it, the damage has already been done.
I know. Sadness isn't bad. It's like rainy nights and wind against the shutters, and people think it's scary not to feel good all the time, but I think it can be beautiful sometimes, to sit and remember and cry, but that's another thing people don't like. People don't like tears, and they get uncomfortable, and they try to fix it so very hard. But sometimes it's not something that needs fixing. It's just life, and some things we should remember, and some things we should be sad about. I agree with you, and I wish more people could just sit and be, but I haven't found many people who are okay in darkness. Good people, kind people, and they just think it's not okay to let you be sad.
Coffee and books sounds nice! See? It's tiny. That's a small, small thing, but it's happiness. Even the confusion, I think, because it maybe means you weren't expecting it, as if you aren't accustomed to people doing tiny nice things, and tiny nice things can be so, so, so big inside us.
[...] My last moment of happy was in a diner. That's it. Just a diner, and nothing special, and the coffee wasn't even very good. But the company was just the perfect company, and that tiny moment was everything. Those little everythings, I think they make the messy times easier to be in.